He Kept Me

He kept me picDuring times of testing, I sometimes need to review my life to remember the past trials that God has brought me through.

Today is definitely one of those days.

I was reading an article from Leah Dipiscal over at Proverbs 31 Ministries.  The title of Leah’s article was simply “The Day I Almost Gave Up”.

I connected with her article because I’ve been saying for a couple of months now, “when Lord will this be over?”

I’m definitely not giving up, but I’m human and I’ve been weakened and bruised during the battle.

But as I read Leah’s testimony, I was reminded of a poem I wrote a while back.  It’s titled “He Kept Me”.

It’s title is significant because God wanted me to remember how He’s kept me and that He is continuously keeping me safe, even now.

I thought I’d share my poem with you so you too can be reminded of the times God has kept you.

He Kept Me (by Marilyn Jernigan)

In the beginning, you created me

You took your time

Cell by cell, skin upon skin,

Bone connecting to bone

And you called me “YOURS”

You created my eyes, my ears, my hands, my feet

I imagine you played with me inside of my mom’s belly

As time went on and life intervened

I thought it was me wanting you

But it was you drawing me

You Kept Me

I was told that I had finally found the Lord

But it was you who were there all along…waiting

Waiting for me to return back to you

The one who talked to me in my mother’s womb

The one who protected me from rape when a man exposed himself to me

When I was a child

The one who kept me from Mr. James when he dressed up in a clown suit

To convince me to come to him

The one whose voice I heard so loud and clear at the tender age of 12

Telling me to run, run as fast as I can

Away from the man who had a white van

Waiting for me at the end of the street

He! Kept! Me!

Yes, I could have been raped, molested, or kidnapped

But you Daddy, protected me

Even when I found out that the Dad I had known for 16 years

Was not my real daddy,

Daddy you still protected me

Good thing huh, because he abandoned me

When he realized I wasn’t his child

But I thank you that my Daddy, Abba Father

Who fills me with His love, His joy, His peace

Peace that guards my heart, my body, and my mind in Christ Jesus!

You see the Lover of my soul knew

He was going to make me His chosen one

I am the apple of my Daddy’s eye, why?

Because he knew that I would spend years of dealing with

Rejection after rejection

A divorce, an adulterous relationship,

A boyfriend whom He showed me was addicted to pornography

Oh and how He saved me from the one who beat me when I was only 17

He! Kept! Me!

But wait, hold on, don’t feel sorry for me

Or think poor girl is so messed up that she’ll never find a man

Because a man, THE MAN,

Has found me, Amen!!!

And His name is JESUS

His love, His mercy, His grace it cleanses

And He didn’t have to scrub me when He washed me

He JUST LET HIS BLOOD RUN DOWN-ALL-OVER-ME

And while He was cleansing me

He broke the chains of rejection, neglect, and abuse off of me

And He hid me in His safety and protected me

And led me in the paths of righteousness that He may get the glory,

Not Me!

I am free!  I am free!  I am free! You see

Because now the Lover of my soul

Has total and complete access to me

To my heart, to my body, my mind and my soul

He rules and reigns unchallenged in me

And I chose to stop befriending my past

And allowed Jesus to heal me

My prayer of Jabez

Is that He would increase and enlarge His territory in me

And you may wonder how I got to this place

Where His Kingdom come, His will be done

Inside of my heart

The Word, HIS WORD is where I had to start

By not speaking or thinking the things the enemy said about me

NO! NO! NO!

I was bought with a price, yet His Word says I am free

Free from the hurt and the lies they told me

And you want to know why because

He Kept Me

And I thank God, my Father for His mercy seat

Because now I’m seated in heavenly places in Christ Jesus

Jesus is the name I use to plead His blood

His word says that I am rooted and grounded in love

And you know that ole enemy surely does hate it

When I tell him I am healed, an overcomer, and consecrated

Jehovah M’Kaddesh, He is the Lord My Sanctifier

Who sets me apart for His glory and I’m going higher

Higher, Higher in Him

Do you know Him?  Jehovah Shallom

Jehovah Sidkinu, Jehovah Jireh, Jehovah Nissi, Jehovah Shammah?

My Healer and the one who makes bitter experiences sweet

Is Jehovah Rapha

The secrets, oh so many secrets I once buried deep in me

Now they are hidden in Christ’s blood

And only He holds the key

He hid all of my hurt

He hid all of my shame

For nothing in return

No personal gain

Unlike all the men who just wanted a piece of me

He gives me sweet peace, everlasting love, and joy complete

Now I no longer look to men for a night of fun

Because I have Adonai

The Completely Self Existing One

HE! KEEPS! ME!

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10 thoughts on “He Kept Me”

  1. Sometimes when we look away from the path that is directly in front of our feet -and turn around and view or consider where we came from (and out of) — we realize that is was nothing short of His miracles that got us as far as we are. Keep writing…very good!

  2. Wow. What a beautiful and transparent poem Marilyn. I could’ve written one just like it (it would include different scenarios of course), but I’m so glad that God protected you and kept you safe from harmful relationships and situations. He is so faithful to us (even when times are hard). Thank you for sharing this. May He continue bringing you joy and peace every single day. You are a blessing! Have a wonderful weekend!

  3. Praise God for his keeping power. One of the Winans songs has blessed me greatly over the years, the lyrics say “Its good to know that he’ll be there if ever I fall, but it’s better to know that I don’t have to fall at all, CAUSE HE’S ABLE TO KEEP ME”. This was truly an encouraging and anointed blog. God really spoke to me thru this blog. Keep up the good work. Love you.
    Your brother Al

  4. Marilyn, I’ve NEVER read anyones blog post consistently as I have yours. It doesn’t mean that others aren’t any good. It is very obvious to me that God is cultivating you for greatest.

    There’s nothing pleasant about going through trials. As a matter of a fact, it’s quite painful. Continue to stand for God, His hand is truly covering you, it shows clearly in your posts.

    Instantly, when I read your post, I thought about what James 1:2 says, “When troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy.”

    You are truly a blessed and gifted woman.

    1. Antoinette, thank you so very much for your loving support! Also, thanks for sharing the scripture with me. I know that God is bringing me out…soon! Many blessings to you dear sis!

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