Today is definitely one of those days.
I was reading an article from Leah Dipiscal over at Proverbs 31 Ministries. The title of Leah’s article was simply “The Day I Almost Gave Up”.
I connected with her article because I’ve been saying for a couple of months now, “when Lord will this be over?”
I’m definitely not giving up, but I’m human and I’ve been weakened and bruised during the battle.
But as I read Leah’s testimony, I was reminded of a poem I wrote a while back. It’s titled “He Kept Me”.
It’s title is significant because God wanted me to remember how He’s kept me and that He is continuously keeping me safe, even now.
I thought I’d share my poem with you so you too can be reminded of the times God has kept you.
He Kept Me (by Marilyn Jernigan)
In the beginning, you created me
You took your time
Cell by cell, skin upon skin,
Bone connecting to bone
And you called me “YOURS”
You created my eyes, my ears, my hands, my feet
I imagine you played with me inside of my mom’s belly
As time went on and life intervened
I thought it was me wanting you
But it was you drawing me
You Kept Me
I was told that I had finally found the Lord
But it was you who were there all along…waiting
Waiting for me to return back to you
The one who talked to me in my mother’s womb
The one who protected me from rape when a man exposed himself to me
When I was a child
The one who kept me from Mr. James when he dressed up in a clown suit
To convince me to come to him
The one whose voice I heard so loud and clear at the tender age of 12
Telling me to run, run as fast as I can
Away from the man who had a white van
Waiting for me at the end of the street
He! Kept! Me!
Yes, I could have been raped, molested, or kidnapped
But you Daddy, protected me
Even when I found out that the Dad I had known for 16 years
Was not my real daddy,
Daddy you still protected me
Good thing huh, because he abandoned me
When he realized I wasn’t his child
But I thank you that my Daddy, Abba Father
Who fills me with His love, His joy, His peace
Peace that guards my heart, my body, and my mind in Christ Jesus!
You see the Lover of my soul knew
He was going to make me His chosen one
I am the apple of my Daddy’s eye, why?
Because he knew that I would spend years of dealing with
Rejection after rejection
A divorce, an adulterous relationship,
A boyfriend whom He showed me was addicted to pornography
Oh and how He saved me from the one who beat me when I was only 17
He! Kept! Me!
But wait, hold on, don’t feel sorry for me
Or think poor girl is so messed up that she’ll never find a man
Because a man, THE MAN,
Has found me, Amen!!!
And His name is JESUS
His love, His mercy, His grace it cleanses
And He didn’t have to scrub me when He washed me
He JUST LET HIS BLOOD RUN DOWN-ALL-OVER-ME
And while He was cleansing me
He broke the chains of rejection, neglect, and abuse off of me
And He hid me in His safety and protected me
And led me in the paths of righteousness that He may get the glory,
I am free! I am free! I am free! You see
Because now the Lover of my soul
Has total and complete access to me
To my heart, to my body, my mind and my soul
He rules and reigns unchallenged in me
And I chose to stop befriending my past
And allowed Jesus to heal me
My prayer of Jabez
Is that He would increase and enlarge His territory in me
And you may wonder how I got to this place
Where His Kingdom come, His will be done
Inside of my heart
The Word, HIS WORD is where I had to start
By not speaking or thinking the things the enemy said about me
NO! NO! NO!
I was bought with a price, yet His Word says I am free
Free from the hurt and the lies they told me
And you want to know why because
He Kept Me
And I thank God, my Father for His mercy seat
Because now I’m seated in heavenly places in Christ Jesus
Jesus is the name I use to plead His blood
His word says that I am rooted and grounded in love
And you know that ole enemy surely does hate it
When I tell him I am healed, an overcomer, and consecrated
Jehovah M’Kaddesh, He is the Lord My Sanctifier
Who sets me apart for His glory and I’m going higher
Higher, Higher in Him
Do you know Him? Jehovah Shallom
Jehovah Sidkinu, Jehovah Jireh, Jehovah Nissi, Jehovah Shammah?
My Healer and the one who makes bitter experiences sweet
Is Jehovah Rapha
The secrets, oh so many secrets I once buried deep in me
Now they are hidden in Christ’s blood
And only He holds the key
He hid all of my hurt
He hid all of my shame
For nothing in return
No personal gain
Unlike all the men who just wanted a piece of me
He gives me sweet peace, everlasting love, and joy complete
Now I no longer look to men for a night of fun
Because I have Adonai
The Completely Self Existing One
HE! KEEPS! ME!